Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Reason I want to lose weight

A while ago I made a list of the reasons I wanted to lose weight.  I have gone back and forth on this goal but thought I would publish my list so that it would be easier for me to see whenever I wanted and to hold myself accountable. 


1. If I am not healthy how can I raise Boom and Bug healthy.
2. I don't like looking in the mirror.
3. It is not healthy.
4. I want to feel sexy again.
5. It will likely help my knee and shoulder.
6. It want to be more active.
7. I don't want to buy plus size clothes.
8. I don't want to dread getting on the scale.
9. I need to be a good role model for Boom and Bug.
10. I don't want to blame family genetics for my poor eating habits.
11. I don't want my girls to be embarrassed of me.
12. I want to encourage my DH.
13. I want to feel beautiful.
14. I want my tummy to be flatter.
15. I need to prove to myself that I have will power.
16. I want to be able to look good for functions like weddings, and baptisms.
17. I am not following Biblical instructions and respecting my body.
18. Not liking my body is causing me to doubt DH's feelings for me - which is ridiculous.
19. I want to be able to walk into a store and pick clothes I like not just clothes that fit!
20. I want to run a 5K.
21. I want to wear my favorite dress again!

This list is not in any order. Just the way I wrote them down.

Friday, October 12, 2012

My Fight with Overeating

I started this blog with the idea that I would post crafts and ideas that I did from around the house.  As you can see that has not happened as often as I would like and I had planned to let my blog go down.  However recently I have decided to take some steps to control my overeating.  I am planning to "journal" these feelings and decided to put them here. 


11 October 2012
10:14am

Today when I stepped on the scale I found myself disgusted with the fact that this week I have put on four pounds.  I started the week at 209.9 and wanted to be at 208.8 by the end of the week.  I have let myself eat whatever, whenever I wanted.  I discovered there is an Overeaters Anonymous meeting at at a church not far from where I work on Monday I am going to go.  I need to get my overeating under control.
There are times I don't even like what I am eating but I just can't seem to stop.  This is cumpulsive and unhealthy.

At 10:20 this morning I realized I was hungry and stated to eat peanut butter off a spoon (not a good snack).  I put the spoon down before eating it and felt a small sense of pride.  I know this sounds silly but if you have dealt with overeating at all this really is a success.  I have decided between meals, if I get hungry, I will write out what I am feeling and keep my hands busy. 

Current feelings: I have a headache and am frustrated with a potential sinus infection.

My regular lunch time is 36 minutes away and I am going to make it!


Update: I did make it to my regular lunch time with out snacking.  I also ate only half the lunch and took the rest home for dinner.  I did eat unhealthy snacks last night but I lost almost two pounds, just by not eating all the time.

Goal for Friday: Go to the gym and walk for at least 30 minutes.